Ok y’all I’m not going to lie, it’s been a tough week, and boy, those difficult days are really good for personal growth! (Or, at least that’s what I try to tell myself). I’m sure you all can relate.
How can we stay centered when it feels like things are falling apart around us?
For me, I feel that I have made a lot of progress in my path of personal development. I do not feel like the same person I was five years ago, and that is a really good thing! The me from five years ago was really insecure about a lot of things- my riding, my body, my ability to talk with people. (I can be painfully shy!) It didn’t matter how much success I had in the show ring or how busy my business was- I still felt like I was never good enough.
Soon after I had my first child, I began to rewire my internal programming and shift my perspective. I worked to cultivate self love and I can honestly say today that I love myself- imperfections and all. But this week has been trying.
Our personality, developed when we were young, is based on our experiences with family and society which often reinforces a feeling of lack, or, not enough. Whenever things go awry, that old wiring kicks in and voila- we begin to live from a place of fear, anger, worry, anxiety, etc...
So, how do we pull ourselves back up when we feel like our world is falling apart and nothing is going right?
Here are are some tools you can use to return to a better frame of mind. You won’t be able to solve your problems in this self destructive mindset so today’s post will focus on how to get out of that funk!
Learn your triggers- This has been key for me in getting to know myself in a deeper way. Understand when and why something triggers you. The first step of any sort of growth is awareness and from awareness we can begin to make a choice in how we react.
True Confessions: As I said at the beginning of this post, this week has been more challenging than most. After a long, somewhat emotionally tumultuous horse show, we had a tire blowout on the trailer on the way home. Then the spare was low and we spent over an hour trying to get it filled up. We had five horses on the trailer and the baby in tow. I took some photos from the spot where our trailer blew the tire to share in this post- about finding beauty all around you, even when circumstances are tough. Luckily, the baby was happy and we made it home safe, sound and relatively sane.
The next day we had some personal issues and this one really brought up some old stuff. I had the awareness when the old programming came up and instead of shutting it down, I went with it, which was the first time in a long while I allowed myself those negative thoughts. I let my self critic speak up and shut out the voice of my inner spirit. It was like putting on an old pair of riding breeches...that were moth eaten, stinky, itchy, restrictive and didn’t fit right.
The next day I made a decision - I am going to live my life in love. I’m going to let love guide me in all things and the next time these old fears and worries come up, I’m going to show myself and my loved ones much more patience and compassion. I am not perfect - far from it but I am doing my best and at the end of the day, that’s all I can do.
This is a pretty long post (so thank you if you are still reading!) but it’s an important topic as so many of us struggle each day with worry, fear, stress and anxiety. By being more present, we can begin to shift our perspective from those fear based feelings into one of love.
I invite you to Awaken to the Truth of your Divine nature. You are love, you are loved and you are always enough.
This blog will be all about personal growth. I will discuss different topics and issues, some relating to horses and some not. Feel free to comment!